Jon inhales sharply, and in truth he shouldn't even be remotely surprised by Martin saying as much, believing as much. Still, he can't help but be struck with how much Martin really did love him, enough to be able to say something like that so readily despite everything, enough to do something like this so readily. He honestly didn't know what to do with that, or the fact he loved Martin back more deeply than he thought he was capable of.

He walks around the desk, reaching out to trace down Martin's temple to his jaw. He should be taking care of this, trying to figure out where they went from here or taking care of the trauma Martin was no doubt struggling with.

Instead he blinks rapidly again, this time fighting back tears as he lets out a choked sound that was probably a laugh. "It's ridiculous, I- it's inappropriate and foolish but I can't help... I never thought someone could love me the way you do. Or that I could love someone like this." He inhales sharply again. "I shouldn't... I'm sorry."